Manure

“It’s just really shitty.”
someone said to me.
and it is, they’re not lying
it’s terrible. 
it isn’t fair,
whatever fair is 
and it has made me angry
and it breaks my heart


and still, 
I don’t want to
marinate
in manure.


I get…
I want to choose
something 
different 


I want to gather it 
haul and spread it 
let it nourish every 
corner of the whole 
canvas of
my life


Colbert once said,
“I love the thing 
that I most wish 
had not happened.”


that’s what I want 
to be grateful for
even the thing 
I didn’t and don’t 
want.
even the thing 
I wish 
wasn’t true

and is.

and still 

a gift